It's a question I've asked myself a bit lately and I've decided today to admit the answer has been no, not really. Inspired by the two random photos I took on my walk this morning I will describe it as being a bit like the unicyclist - I was heading in the right direction but it was decidedly wobbily, a bit like one of the wheels had fallen off. Like the crow, there was a feeling like I had bitten off more than I could chew and was constantly walking around on egg shells for fear something would break.
So I fronted to the GP, cried a lot and emerged with a prescription for antidepressants. I won't say that the fog has lifted, in fact for the first few days all I felt was nauseous. But I do feel a renewed clarity and focus and an ability to tackle what everyday life throws at me.
So am I okay? Yes, not exactly on top of the world yet and still a bit wobbily but I really feel I'm getting there.
I sincerely hope that anyone reading this is also okay and if not finds the courage to ask for help. It took me too long. I hope others are wiser.
A brave and honest post Susan. Your words are so important. xxxx
ReplyDeleteI agree with Annie, and I guess your situation is a little masked by the fact that we anticipate your photo each day, interact with you on twitter and look forward to hearing you each week on the radio with Spencer. A reminder we shouldn't wait for the second Thurs in September to ask our friends R U OK?
DeleteA great post Susan... I hope you keep climbing back out of that place. I think we all fall in there sometimes. Honesty is so important. Nothing is more scary than someone sliding down who is not brave enough to grab hold of a rope offered to them.
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I drafted a long comment on this but deleted it out of self doubt. All I can say is thank you for sharing,
ReplyDeleteI admit to a huge doubt of self doubt. Wrote the post and then sat on it for eight hours just not sure about talking about something so personal. The reaction says I made the right call. Thank-you for reading and commenting
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